Day Thirteen: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days

You know without a doubt that Chris Martin/Coldplay is the artist/band that gets me through when thing got rough. So without further ado

Dear Chris Martin/Coldplay:
I think every person needs a musician they can count on to always deliver music that transcends the harmony, melody, and lyrics that contains it. You do that for me. Your music, your beautiful lyrics, have gotten me through some tough ass times in my life. Whenever I need understanding, inspiration, comfort, motivation, happiness I put on your music and it pulls me out of my darkness and sheds some clarity and light through me. I want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for being a musician, for creating songs with meaning and substance, for being the artist that I can always count on to deliver something beyond amazing.
I’ve been listening to you since I was in my mid twenty, when I stumbled upon “The Scientist” music video on MTV and you became a constant part of my musical journey. No one else holds a musical candle to inspiration and comfort you give me when I need it the most. I always listen to “The Scientist” or “Fix You” when I need comfort. “Gravity” when I need understanding. “See You Soon” when I am missing someone.
“Life In Technicolor” or “Strawberry Swing when I need a boost or a smile. I could list them all, but that would be every song on every album and B-sides.
I just want to remind you that your music matters, you matter, to so many loyal fans including me. I’ll be tuning into Coldplay for as long as my ears can listen to music. Thank you for providing a musical sanctuary in my mind, heart, body, and soul. Thank you so much Chris for what you do, and who you are. I just hope one day I get to shake your hand and give my thanks in person.
Your forever fan,

P.S. Keep doing what you do, we need your music in this world. To inspire, challenge, motivate, and make us smile.

Day Twelve: Something you never get compliment on…

How hard I work. No matter how hard I work, it seems to me no one recognize that I have put not only one hundred percent but at least 150% of my effort because I always make it look easy at anything I do simply because I am a problem solver. I always try to find which way is the best way to approach in accomplishment of any task I have to do. I also find the best solution/short cut to get thing done in correct and more efficient way. Most people think I am born to be smart. Reality that they don't know how hard I work at anything I have accomplished. Even my family has never recognized at anything small or big that I have to do for them on daily basis. I don't want people to praise me for what I do, but at least acknowledge that I have done something to pave the road ahead and to make it easier for them

Day Eleven: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

How strong and mature I am. I don’t feel that way all the time. The mature part, yes I feel a hell of a lot older than I am, but that’s because I had to grow up fast and be responsible for things most kids aren’t. Sometimes I feel like I finally get to be a kid even though I’m an “adult.” People tell me all the time how strong I am, but I don’t see it and I don’t feel it. Maybe it’s just hollow strength. I’m just someone who can endure, but I don’t think that makes me strong. People tell me I inspire them, and that is the compliment I really like.

Day Ten: Something you have to forgive someone for.

I need to forgive my cousins, my aunts, and my uncles for every hurtful things they have done and said to my family. I need to forgive them for their stupidity and ignorance. I need to forgive them for not accepting my family and I just because we are different. I need to forgive them but not forget... Most important thing is we are much better off without them in our lives... I wished them well and get what they're deserve because the way they treat others. I'm glad that they are no longer be a part of my life and they are so far in the distance of my list because there are so many other amazing people in my life. The greatest ones are my parents, because they keep me going, and showing them that everything they've done for me matters, and that it is worth it. Few of my closest friends are my main inspirations for getting up the nerve to make myself comfortable in my own skin. My sweetpea who inspires me, challenges me, and loves me. My only sister who encourages me to be the better me.

Day Nine: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

My ex boss whose nick name I called "UB".  I don’t want to EVER have her enter my thoughts. I don’t want to wonder about her, I don’t want any of it. I just want to leave all of it in the past, and close that chapter forever like it’s not happening or there is no any part of her. I acknowledge who she was to me, and what she meant but I don’t want to let her occupy ANY space in my mind. I want and need to let go, so that I can open myself to the possibility of another person when that happens. I don’t wish I didn’t know her, because I realize there's a lot of things about life. Yeah, she hurt my feelings a lot by misusing her authority in attempt to humiliate and belittle me in front of my peers. I can't stand on the same ground with her because she is a BAD person not to me but also to my friends and colleagues. I wished I have not ever across her path. I have told myself that she is NOTHING to me and even if I run into her, she is just like a piece of trash on the road.

Day Eight: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted...

The bond with my sister! It was hard to leave her behind when we left our country to move to the states. Even when I told her how I felt, I made it clear that I didn’t want to lose my friend, someone I trusted, someone who was an important part of my life, but I lost that closeness bond with her in the end. I’ve never wanted to let go of that brother-and sister bond between us, but in the end we drifted because of our distance. She now has a family and I am now all grown up as a young man. For better or worse, we are remain to be brother and sister, but that’s the end of our bond. I’m not angry, and I don’t blame it on anyone. It’s sad and unfortunate because life has make us drifting apart. However,  I still remember the good times, and what I learned from her as my only sister. I missed the ability to come to her for consult and the ability to tell her everything that happens in my life. I missed that a lot. Even though we are still communicate, she and I are not often seeing things eye to eye. I felt that it is hard for me to relate my feeling to her or open up with her about things that I can't talk to anyone else. It hurts to be the one carrying all the weight. I will love her as my sister forever, but our bond I have to accept that it wasn't there anymore.  

Day Seven: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit…

The only person that made me close to this feeling are my first love. When they say first love hurts, they should really say first love is like misery in two words. Haha, it’s an indescribable feeling of highs and lows, but this person’s not so great that made my life hell because this person sure did treat me and my feelings like shit. Eventually became my stalker after we broke up, and I have ended up to file for a protective order against.

I’m now wiser, stronger, and even be deeply loved by someone far much better...

Day Six: Someone who has made your life worth living for…

There are so many great people in my life. The greatest ones are my parents, because they keep me going, and showing them that everything they've done for me matters, and that it is worth it. My family, which includes my my other half, a true friend and greatest partner who has done so many great things for my folks and me, who has shown me what real love can be feel like, who has been there and do make my life worth living. My only sibling who make me care so much about everything I do because it's matter to her. Few of my closest friends are my main inspirations for getting up the nerve to make myself comfortable in my own skin, who inspire me, challenge me, and love me, which is my family and friends are what makes life worth living and enjoying. I love you all.

Day Five: Something you hope to do in your life...

There are so many things I hope to do in my life, but right now at 35,  I really hope that I find a second career that feels like my second skin, my calling, and that it allows me to help others and not starving my love ones and myself to death. I really know what I want to do, but the how is still in question. So I hope I find the answer. so I can start moving towards becoming someone to be there for others.

I can feel it in my bones that I am meant to help others in some way. To help them when they are struggling, unsure, hurting, lonely, broken, questioning, scared…everything and every way I want to be someone they can count on. Someone they can trust to be there for them, to give them hope, and to help them to find a way out of the darkness in their lives. I want to go into counseling or psychology, but I haven’t figured out which one is the right/best way for me to get there.

I want to give other people's hope. I’ve been there, and I want to help them realize that they can get out of their situation, environment, darkness, and find the life they’ve imagined becsause it is a possibility. I want to give them hope, help them discover it in themselves, and then have them pay it forward. Only time can tell my full potential...